Right now I’m in a strange in-between moment.

I applied to three MBA programs: one full-time program in another state, one part-time program right next to my house, and one online MBA. Recently I received my first decision—I was accepted to the online program. I’m still waiting to hear back from the other two.

Objectively, the part-time/online programs make the most sense. I could keep my job. My life wouldn’t have to change that much.

But if I’m being completely honest with myself, the program I really want is the full-time MBA.

Part of it is the experience. I imagine being on campus, spending long days with classmates, studying together, having spontaneous conversations, building real relationships. I want the full experience, not just the credential.

But there is another reason that I haven’t shared with anyone.

Sometimes I feel like I want to run away again.

Lately I’ve felt stuck. I don’t enjoy my job anymore, and life has started to feel repetitive. The same routines, the same schedule, the same environment. Nothing feels particularly exciting.

And then there is the practical side of things.

I have a mortgage. If I moved for a full-time MBA, I would likely have to take out loans—not just for tuition, but also to cover my mortgage and living expenses. That’s a lot of money. The responsible part of me knows that.

So I keep asking myself the same question: why do I still want to go?

Is this normal? Do adults just get bored after living in the same place for too long? Do people feel this urge to shake things up, even when their lives are relatively stable?

Or is there something wrong with me for wanting more change?

I wish someone could tell me what the right decision is… Pleaseeeeee